Dear Friend,
It always seems like a good week is followed by a bad week – not two bad weeks in a row. Last week was extremely bad. I had a term paper to write and two tests to worry about. Like always I waited until the last minutes to start the five page term paper, which sucked and was super stressful. And the two tests just sucked. And then there were health issues and now I’m on so much medication it’s ridiculous.
But anyway, the one thing that I can always think of that will help me not be less stressful are the fun times that me and my boyfriend have together. When we’re with each other, nothing matters and we just do whatever. We can be doing nothing and still have fun together. I use the memories of him to get me through my tough times because he’s my best friend. And even though we’ve had out bad times together, they don’t matter because we’ve had more good times than bad times.
We’ve known each other close to a year and a half and we’ve been dating for about a year now so we’ve had so much time together to bond. And we known when the other person is upset or sad and we know how to fix it. So what I guess what I’m trying to say is that even though I do have other close friends, he is the one that I can think of and my bad week does get a little better. And the thought of him puts a smile on my face.
Lots of love,
Lexi
Monday, November 17, 2008
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
November 5th, 2008
Dear Friend,
I have made you a CD for you to listen to whenever you’re driving or just bored and want to listen to something :).
The name of the CD that I made for you is, "Best Memories".
1. Live Your Life – Rihanna ft. T.I.
2. All The Same - Sick Puppies
3. Light Up The Sky – Yellowcard
4. Pachebel Canon in D Major – Bach
5. Hide and Seek - DJ Tiesto
6. Save Tonight – Eagle-Eye Cherry
7. The Great Escape – Boys Like Girls
8. & Down – Boys Noize
9. The Birds and The Bees – Breathe Carolina
10. Live Your Life – Rihanna ft. T.I.
I repeated the first and last song because that song does give a good message about living your life the way it is and not taking anything for granted. And I think that is a very essential life message to take from that song. When listening to this CD, I hope you get the feeling of being relaxed and just reliving all of our memories. I know that most of the songs on here have been some of our favorites :)
Since the holidays are coming up – my favorite time of the year!! – I get to see my family, which I haven’t seen since I moved away for college. It’s going to be so amazing to see them!
· My grandma smokes a lot but she swears a lot too and it’s so funny.
· My baby brother sticks to my dad’s leg like glue.
· My aunt is always laughing and talking with someone.
· My cousin is always trying to get someone to play a game of dominos with him.
· My grandpa is always putting mountains of whipped cream on his pumpkin pie.
Oh jeeze, I can’t wait for pumpkin pie now! Haha I guess I’ll have to wait three more weeks until Thanksgiving.
Lots of Love!!
Lexi
I have made you a CD for you to listen to whenever you’re driving or just bored and want to listen to something :).
The name of the CD that I made for you is, "Best Memories".
1. Live Your Life – Rihanna ft. T.I.
2. All The Same - Sick Puppies
3. Light Up The Sky – Yellowcard
4. Pachebel Canon in D Major – Bach
5. Hide and Seek - DJ Tiesto
6. Save Tonight – Eagle-Eye Cherry
7. The Great Escape – Boys Like Girls
8. & Down – Boys Noize
9. The Birds and The Bees – Breathe Carolina
10. Live Your Life – Rihanna ft. T.I.
I repeated the first and last song because that song does give a good message about living your life the way it is and not taking anything for granted. And I think that is a very essential life message to take from that song. When listening to this CD, I hope you get the feeling of being relaxed and just reliving all of our memories. I know that most of the songs on here have been some of our favorites :)
Since the holidays are coming up – my favorite time of the year!! – I get to see my family, which I haven’t seen since I moved away for college. It’s going to be so amazing to see them!
· My grandma smokes a lot but she swears a lot too and it’s so funny.
· My baby brother sticks to my dad’s leg like glue.
· My aunt is always laughing and talking with someone.
· My cousin is always trying to get someone to play a game of dominos with him.
· My grandpa is always putting mountains of whipped cream on his pumpkin pie.
Oh jeeze, I can’t wait for pumpkin pie now! Haha I guess I’ll have to wait three more weeks until Thanksgiving.
Lots of Love!!
Lexi
Monday, October 27, 2008
October 27, 2008
Have I ever told you how beautiful the mountains are? I feel like that people who live in this area take them for granted because people from all over the country come to see them. I think that living right next to them is just about the coolest thing ever. The environment that they create is just different and you can’t find that anywhere else around the world. I think that because I have grown up here all my life that I would miss them if I moved somewhere else.
Speaking of moving, I just recently moved - but I still have my mountains! J - I just moved away from all of my friends and family and it’s kind of weird. I was so used to having them around me and now they’re far away and I haven’t seen them in so long. Looking back I think that my senior year was kind of like my “glory days” of my life so far. All of my very close friends and me were getting ready to leave for college and just having fun because of it. We were trying to have as much fun as we could because we wouldn’t see each other in a few months and we were just making the best of it. We did stuff that we had never done before and we just grew closer, you know? We reached that part in our life where we would be leaving each other and it sucked. It really did. But it was good. Kind of bittersweet, almost.
Moving away from my family was hard too. I was fascinated by how much I missed them when I moved. But the holidays are coming up so I get to see them all pretty soon. We get together for every Thanksgiving and Christmas and have a dinner. It’s pretty cool how we all go over to my grandma’s and just hang out. My grandma makes the best food, its amazing. Usually after we’re done eating we’ll break out some kind of game and like eight or nine people will be playing and it’s a lot of fun because our family usually doesn’t get together like that. Only during the holidays.
Lots of Love,
Lexi
Speaking of moving, I just recently moved - but I still have my mountains! J - I just moved away from all of my friends and family and it’s kind of weird. I was so used to having them around me and now they’re far away and I haven’t seen them in so long. Looking back I think that my senior year was kind of like my “glory days” of my life so far. All of my very close friends and me were getting ready to leave for college and just having fun because of it. We were trying to have as much fun as we could because we wouldn’t see each other in a few months and we were just making the best of it. We did stuff that we had never done before and we just grew closer, you know? We reached that part in our life where we would be leaving each other and it sucked. It really did. But it was good. Kind of bittersweet, almost.
Moving away from my family was hard too. I was fascinated by how much I missed them when I moved. But the holidays are coming up so I get to see them all pretty soon. We get together for every Thanksgiving and Christmas and have a dinner. It’s pretty cool how we all go over to my grandma’s and just hang out. My grandma makes the best food, its amazing. Usually after we’re done eating we’ll break out some kind of game and like eight or nine people will be playing and it’s a lot of fun because our family usually doesn’t get together like that. Only during the holidays.
Lots of Love,
Lexi
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
September 30, 2008
Dear Friend,
You've known me for a number of years that you know that my family isn't exactly...functional. It seems like something is always wrong. Umm, I don't know if I've ever told you this but my family is alcoholic. Well at least my dad, my aunt, and two of my uncles are. And my aunt has almost died from over drinking twice now. She has almost lost her life twice now and she still doesn't seem to get the idea that if she keeps this up it's going to finally kill her. I don't get how someone would intentionally drink that much and then at the last minute decide that they don't want to die. I just don't get it.
My dad is kind of the same way but at least he's a little smarter to not drink to the point where he's going to die. But at the sametime, he does have some anger problems and it does get really bad when something goes wrong and, to be honest, I thought that me and brother were in big big trouble because he would yell and throw things. He never did hit us though. Never once. Just yelled. I would take the lesser of the two evils anyday when it came to my dad's yelling fits.
I just feel like I missed out on a normal childhood, you know? I've always had to live in a home where I had to tip-toe around to not get yelled at. Like I look at my relatives families and I wish I could have grown up there. My parents got divorced when I was like 6 or 7 so you know I never had my mom around to talk to - but it's not like we talk today anyway so no big loss there.
But right before I started college, I got to live with my aunt - you know the one that I love and the one that saved me from going insane. She was the one who taught me to not take any more shit from my dad and taught me to say no to him. Don't get me wrong or anything, I do love my dad and I do miss him but at the sametime, I had to get out of my house and away from him. Anyway, she taught me a lot of things. Overall, she taught me to take life one day at a time and to appreciate life because your life can change in a matter of a day. And you know, it's true.
And I guess I can see the same message when it comes to my friends, too. My groups of very close friends has changed dramatically. And my relationship with one of my very best friends has changed to where I can't talk to her anymore. I don't know how it happened but I guess it happened slowly, to where I didn't even see it coming. You remember my ex-boyfriend right? Of course you do. I guess it was him that took me away from her and now I don't have both of them in my life anymore. She was like a sister to me. The one person that I could turn to and just talk and talk and talk. He was the one person that I felt like could take me away from all of my family problems. But now they're both gone. Once again, take life one day at a time and appreciate every moment of it.
And when I do take the time to appreciate life and take it one day at a time, I feel infinite because I know that I'm not taking anything for granted. I just get this feeling of I-don't-even-know-what running through my body, but it's a good feeling. It's a very good feeling.
Lots of Love,
Lexi
You've known me for a number of years that you know that my family isn't exactly...functional. It seems like something is always wrong. Umm, I don't know if I've ever told you this but my family is alcoholic. Well at least my dad, my aunt, and two of my uncles are. And my aunt has almost died from over drinking twice now. She has almost lost her life twice now and she still doesn't seem to get the idea that if she keeps this up it's going to finally kill her. I don't get how someone would intentionally drink that much and then at the last minute decide that they don't want to die. I just don't get it.
My dad is kind of the same way but at least he's a little smarter to not drink to the point where he's going to die. But at the sametime, he does have some anger problems and it does get really bad when something goes wrong and, to be honest, I thought that me and brother were in big big trouble because he would yell and throw things. He never did hit us though. Never once. Just yelled. I would take the lesser of the two evils anyday when it came to my dad's yelling fits.
I just feel like I missed out on a normal childhood, you know? I've always had to live in a home where I had to tip-toe around to not get yelled at. Like I look at my relatives families and I wish I could have grown up there. My parents got divorced when I was like 6 or 7 so you know I never had my mom around to talk to - but it's not like we talk today anyway so no big loss there.
But right before I started college, I got to live with my aunt - you know the one that I love and the one that saved me from going insane. She was the one who taught me to not take any more shit from my dad and taught me to say no to him. Don't get me wrong or anything, I do love my dad and I do miss him but at the sametime, I had to get out of my house and away from him. Anyway, she taught me a lot of things. Overall, she taught me to take life one day at a time and to appreciate life because your life can change in a matter of a day. And you know, it's true.
And I guess I can see the same message when it comes to my friends, too. My groups of very close friends has changed dramatically. And my relationship with one of my very best friends has changed to where I can't talk to her anymore. I don't know how it happened but I guess it happened slowly, to where I didn't even see it coming. You remember my ex-boyfriend right? Of course you do. I guess it was him that took me away from her and now I don't have both of them in my life anymore. She was like a sister to me. The one person that I could turn to and just talk and talk and talk. He was the one person that I felt like could take me away from all of my family problems. But now they're both gone. Once again, take life one day at a time and appreciate every moment of it.
And when I do take the time to appreciate life and take it one day at a time, I feel infinite because I know that I'm not taking anything for granted. I just get this feeling of I-don't-even-know-what running through my body, but it's a good feeling. It's a very good feeling.
Lots of Love,
Lexi
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
September 16th, 2008
Dear Friend,
I am writing to you because I just went through one of the most dramatic few hours of my life. And I know that you’ll understand what I’m going through because you know me the best out of anyone.
So you know that my boyfriend broke up with me about a month ago, right? Yeah well, he decided to get back together with me. And I, being stupid, took him back. Yeah, that came back to bite me in the ass.
But anyway, about a week after we got back together he started to say that he couldn’t handle only seeing me on the weekends since he’s still on high school and all can’t drive down to see me, and that just kind of pissed me off. So we decided to just call it off when I would go back home for the weekend. We were going to get together and talk about it and end it nicely and all that. But it didn’t happen that way. He got all pissed off at me and broke up with me over a freaking text message!! A text message!! Like seriously, I think I deserve better than that you know? We were together for nine and half months and he just ends everything over a text message.
But whatever, the first time we broke up it was hard to move on. This time it was like, eh whatever. At least I’m not the one who’s a coward. So yeah, this has been my life for the past couple of weeks and I just want to let you know that I even though I seem like a bitch in this letter, I’m really not like this in real life. I’m just having one of those moments, you know?
The reason I wrote you this letter is because I needed to throw off some steam and just get everything off my chest. My anger isn’t directed at you, promise.
Lots of Love,
Lexi
I am writing to you because I just went through one of the most dramatic few hours of my life. And I know that you’ll understand what I’m going through because you know me the best out of anyone.
So you know that my boyfriend broke up with me about a month ago, right? Yeah well, he decided to get back together with me. And I, being stupid, took him back. Yeah, that came back to bite me in the ass.
But anyway, about a week after we got back together he started to say that he couldn’t handle only seeing me on the weekends since he’s still on high school and all can’t drive down to see me, and that just kind of pissed me off. So we decided to just call it off when I would go back home for the weekend. We were going to get together and talk about it and end it nicely and all that. But it didn’t happen that way. He got all pissed off at me and broke up with me over a freaking text message!! A text message!! Like seriously, I think I deserve better than that you know? We were together for nine and half months and he just ends everything over a text message.
But whatever, the first time we broke up it was hard to move on. This time it was like, eh whatever. At least I’m not the one who’s a coward. So yeah, this has been my life for the past couple of weeks and I just want to let you know that I even though I seem like a bitch in this letter, I’m really not like this in real life. I’m just having one of those moments, you know?
The reason I wrote you this letter is because I needed to throw off some steam and just get everything off my chest. My anger isn’t directed at you, promise.
Lots of Love,
Lexi
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